Cloudbusting

I still dream of smoke. I wake up crying. You're making rain, And you're just in reach, When you and sleep escape me. You're like my yo-yo That glowed in the dark. What made it special Made it dangerous, So I bury it And forget. But every time it rains, You're here in my head, Like the sun coming out-- Ooh, I just know that something good is going to happen. And I don't know when, But just saying it could even make it happen. On top of the world, Looking over the edge, You could see them coming. I looked too small In that big, dark car, To be a threat to the men in power. I hid my yo-yo In the garden. I can't hide you From the government. Oh, God, Daddy-- I won't forget, 'Cause every time it rains, You're here in my head, Like the sun coming out-- Ooh, I just know that something good is going to happen. And I don't know when, But just saying it could even make it happen. The sun's coming out. Your son's coming out.

some rosy complaints and comments

It's not me who has to be sorry!

It's not you who must console the rest!

You have always been more capable than your mom said. And your smile has always looked prettiest when you are smiling at yourself in the mirror.

And you deserve a bigger wedding ring than anybody's ever gonna give you. 

You want life to bring you flowers, and it's about time you go and buy yourself some.

You should have tried out for cheerleading.

and told more people to f off. 

You should have eaten more, and taken your vitamins.

You should start talking louder.

and you ought to give more kisses away.

High time you made somebody feel special, cause I know you are good enough to do that.

I think you should have taken more boys to One Man Band and you should have cried in front of em' all.

I think you should have worn lipstick as much as you wanted to in fifth grade.

You've always had cute ears, and you can wear your hair up more.

You ought to let your heart belong to everybody, even though it hurts so much!

and remember that time is a real thing. and even though you'll be around forever, you better move in life, & do more things you like. 

now you've got a car, and a house you haven't ever seen is gonna be yours someday.

Take everybody you love.

And don't you ever leave anybody behind.

Cry in more parking lots. And scream when you feel you need to.

You should be dancing more energetically & snapping your fingers louder.

If your heart doesn't feel open and bloody and broke, that means you aren't giving enough of yourself to others. 

and God forbid you feel this bored forever. 

You should quit being such a slave to agency.

and make some bigger decisions.

and don't try alcohol, cause you'll probably like it.

Prince charming already came and left.

So don't you dare wait for his loud truck to come back to you.

Love everybody.

Cultivate so many smiles that you feel like you're gonna burst.

and when your sparkle feels like it's faded, It's only cause you need some better music and a milkshake. 

Don't give up on anyone or anything.

And forgive some more.

I want to live. I don't want to crash my car into a river like i thought i did.

I'd rather drown in the laughter and tears and all the things life is gonna throw my way.